August 5th, 2005
|10:47 pm - Hmm. hope this works? lol|
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A little cheerleading video we took at Titans the other night.. I'm inthe green.. Gotta love the DEVILS..
April 29th, 2005
|08:33 pm - One more kiss could be the best thing, but one more lie could be the worst..*|
Sooo.. this is kind of awkward, I'm writing this all in white, so I can't really see a word I'm writing.. I think I should change it, thennnn make it white.. lol.. Obviously I think ahead?! lol
Thereee.. Much better.. (i like how I'm talking to myself, as this will be white when you actually read it. lol)
Soo.. today.. Mom woke me up super early to take me to the Dr.'s.. I have eff-ing bronchitus.. But, Dad being the military hard-ass that he is, won't let me call in sick.. (If you saw me, I'm sure you'd vomit.. I look like hell..) I didn't go to school yesterday, and for obvious reason.. But, I still had to work. But, my boss being the nice lady that she is, sent me home so I could sleep.. She'd rather me be sleeping, so I could be there tomorrow when it's a zoo.
Oh well, can't have it all.
So, Matty called me today to find out my dress colour.. I think he and Mike are going tux-shopping, so Mike needed to know so we could match.. Ohh, that sweet little prom date of mine.. haha
I still hate boys though.. Don't get me wrong.. haha
But, I do like you if you're from Fairview.. You're my brothers.. In a non-weird kinda way. haha
CHEER EXPO WAS THE MOTHER FUCKING SHIIIT!
I do beleive HCE cleaned the fuck uppp! WOLVES = EXPO CHAMPIONS! annddddd Lauren David, Breeana Lloyd, Alicia Austin, Jenn Flynn, and Jenn Hendren = EXPO SENIOR STUNT CHAMPIONS!
Ohhh, I'm so proud of you guys.. We worked SOO hard for this..
Let's bust some ass in Provi's!
My ass is drowsy from all my meds..
Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: Show me the meaning, of Being lonely. HAHAHA
April 22nd, 2005
|10:22 am - Sort of how I'm feeling at the moment...|
*I've been driving for an hour,
Just talking to the rain.
You say I've been driving you crazy, and it's keeping you away.
So just give me one good reason.
Tell me why I should stay..
'Cause I don't wanna waste another moment saying things we never ment to say..*
*I'm contimplating everything you've ever said.
Now I see the truth, and I've gotta doubt.
There's a different movtive in your eyes, and now I'm out..
See you later.
I see your fantasy, you wanna make it a reality paved in gold.
I see inside of your head.
But now that's over.
I see the motive inside, and your decisions you hide..
I know that you are wrong, and this is NOT where you belong..*
*It's a shame that we've gotta spend our time being mad about the same things.. Over and over again..*
*I remmeber the day you left.
I remember the last breath you took right infront of me.
When you said that you would leave, I was too damn stubburn to try and stop you, or say anything.
But I see it clearly now, and this choice I made keeps playing in my head..
Over and Over again.*
*One more kiss could be the best thing..
But one more lie could be the worst.
All these thoughts are never resting,
and not something I deserve.
in my head there's only you now.
and this world falls on me..
In this world, theres real and make-beleive
and this seems real to me..
you love me, but you dont know who i am
im torn between this life i lead, and where i stand.
you love me but you don't know who i am..
so let me go..*
*In your face, I can see the pain, dont you try to convince us that you're happy.
we've seen this all before, but he's taking advantage of the passion
but we've come to far for you to feel alone,
don't you let him walk all over your heart..*
*I can tell hes been lying.. And pretending that's faithful, and he loves you.
You don't have to be hiding.. Don't you be ashamed to say he hurt you.*
*It's the end of you and me.
It's too late, and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know all about her, and I wonder,
how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right.
But it was just a waste of time..*
*After all is said and done,
maybe I'm the one to blame..
Just to think that you would be the one
But, it didn't work out that way..*
*I wanted you right here with me.
but I have no choice, you've gotta leave,
because my heart is breaking with every word I'm saying.
I gave up everything I had on something that just wouldnt last.
But I refuse to cry.. No tears will fall from these eyes..*
Current Mood: I don't even know anymore.*
Current Music: Anything angry?
March 19th, 2005
1. First best friend: Leslie
2. First love: A certain Mr. A. Bushen..
3. First screen name: Uhh.. Probably something embarassing, sooo I won't remind myself.. Lol*
1. Last kiss: Wednesday night, when I was leaving Bridgewater..
2. Last good cry: I really don't remember?!.
3. Last food consumed: Double cheeseburger from DQ.. Mmm Fatass!..
4. Last crush: Still the same one as its always been!
1. Who is your best friend: Hesh, CK, Moo, Hosein and Ashweee*
2. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: Kinda yes, kinda nooo.. We're quite the confused couple. lol.
3. Do you want one: Yeeeeah, if it happens.. lol
1. What kind of shampoo do you use: Herbal Essences, The Rose one?!
2. What are you most scared of: Umm. Being alone when you need someone the most...
3. What would you change about yourself: TEETH.. haha
1. Colors: Yellow and Pink and Turquoise..
2. Foods: Tacos annndd.. Ceasar salad
3. Subject in school: English, PAL, Bio.. Hmm.. Drama 10.. yess!
4. Animals: My baby, Quila! Cutest kitten everrr!...
5. Sports: CHEERLEADING, soccer, volleyball, football, annnd hockey..
6. Movie: dirty dancing
HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Given anyone a bath: Heh, heh.. NEXT..!
2. Made yourself throw-up: Yuuppp.. Too many drunken times. lol
3. Skinny dipped: That was last summer, I do believe. lol
4. Been in lust: Yeaaah.. I can't help it.. haa
5. Been on stage: A few times, but not recently!
1. Clothes: Cheer sweater, Roots sweatpants, and some random Tank.
2. Music: Noneee. Rebooted the puter yesterday, so I have NO tunes.. =(
3. Make-up: Whatever I put on before I went to the movies?
1. Talked to: Daddy on his way to work!
2. Hugged: Little Kenzie darling..
3. IMed: Jennie Flynn!
4. Kissed: Ashleyyy.. ILU!
5. Last person who slept at your house: Ashley, again.. lol
6. Last persons house you slept at: Ashley.. AGAIn.. Wow I'm boringgg. lol
Current Mood: I LOVE VIN DIESEL.. Lol
Current Music: Noneeee =(
January 23rd, 2005
|12:38 am - Quiz I stole from Alysonnn.|
HAVE YOU EVER...
1. Kissed your cousin: Oh of course... And I'm dating my mother's uncle's wife's son..? MOVING ON!
2. Ran away: Umm.. Not recently? MAybe to NAnny's.. lol.
3. Pictured your crush naked: Hahaha.. yeaaahh.
4. Skipped school: Yeaah, But I'm doing well, skipped ONCE since midterms!
5. Broken someone's heart: Once.... =\
6. Been in love: Yuuupp.. But, we're not going there..
7. Cried when someone died: Sure have.. (love you, Papa)
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: Yeah, but I'm over that.
9. Broken a bone: Some bone in my foot.. Last weekend. haha.
10. Done something embarrassing: When do I not? haha
11. Lied: Yeaaah, moving along.. =\
12. Cried in school: Yup. On Thursday, I do believe.. haha Stupid facking exams. haha
WHICH IS BETTER...
13. Coke or Pepsi: Coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: Sprite. I like it better than Coke.
15. Girls or Guys: Guys.. But girls are always great (well, the SELECT few!)
16. Flowers or Candy: Flowers.. You can save them for extended periods of time, and they don't make me FAT. haha
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: Hmmm .. Clean, but scruffy SOMETIMES.. Maybe. I'm a huge fan of the Chin Strap.. So I have mixed feelings.. haha
18. Blondes or Brunettes: No opinion.. I was both? lol
19. Bitchy or Slutty: Bitchy.. It's an art.
20. Tall or Short: Tall... Well, I have no choice.. Everything/one is taller than meeee.
21. Pants or Shorts: Pants.. Jeans, preferably.
22. Night or Day: Day, sunshine (mostly..)
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
23. What do you notice first: Footwear (I'm fucking weird. lol), Eyes, humor..
24. Last Person You Slow Danced With: That would've been Reggie? hahahaahahaa!
25. Worst Question To Ask: Sooo.... My backseat, or yours?! (actually been asked that.. and then shut them down.. because i dont drive.. lol)
THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: ....friday.. haha ew
27. Stepped outside: Just an hour ago, comming in from work.
28. Had sex: IF you needed to know, you would by now! ;) Moving onnnn.
29. Romantic memory: "I wanna keep you.." orrrr, "check your phone.." orrrr even "I.C.G.O.N.L.U"......
31. Person You Hate Most: Jill Dobson.. hahahahahah WHORE ASS.
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: Leaving fucknut with his whore ass, getting over it, and finally finding something totally unexpected and amazing.. Which I'm totally greatful for..
33. On your desk: CDs, headphones, cell phone, Toronto Maple Leafs Mousepad,lamp, sunglasses (which have been here since July..lol) digi cam, speakers, ...teddy bears??? hahah
34. Picture on your desktop: Some stupid ugly computer made mountain, with an orange sky?? wtf? haha
35. Color: Pink/yellow
36. Movie: Dodgeball, Coach Carter, Remember the Titans, The Replacements, Mean Girls, Napoleon Dynamite, Scarface..
37. Artist or band: I like Usher? hah i donno.
38. Cars: I donno, I don't pay attention. lol
39. Ice Cream: Butterscotch Ripple, old fasioned vanilla, strawberry.
41. Food: Anything Chinese or Mexican.
42. Makes You Laugh The Most: Moo!.
43. Makes You Smile: Bushen, Les, Moo, Hosein, Hesh, Ck, etc.
44. Can Make You Feel Better: Bushennn.
45. Has A Crush On You: Thats a little obvious..
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: Yes, yes I do..
47. Who Has It Easier?: Uhh I'm confused. haha
48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: Probably J-DO.. Makes my stomach want to vomit. hahaha.
DO YOU EVER...
49. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: Depends.. I've been doing that lately, but thats because I'm ready to bitch like CRAZZYYY.
50. Save AIM Conversations: I don't have that?..
51. Save E-mails: Only special e-mails.
52. Forward Secret E-mail: No.. Whos that much of a geek? lol
53. Wish You Were Someone Else: Alll the time./ =\
54. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: Naw, I like being a girl.
55. Wear Cologne: Nopeee.. Hawaiian Ginger body spraaayyy.
56. Kiss: It's been 21 days since the last one.. lol
57. Cuddle: I miss that.. =(
58. Go Online For Longer Than Eight Hours At A Time: Who has enough time for that? haha
HAVE YOU EVER...
59. Fallen For Your Best Friend?: Yess.. But we all know how well that went.
60. Made Out With JUST A Friend?: Hahaha, moving on.
61. Kissed Two People In The Same Day?: ...Moving on. hahaha
62. Had Sex With 2 Different People In The Same Day?: NO THANKS!
63. Been Rejected: Yes
65. Been In Lust?: Yessss. I hate it .haha
66. Used Someone?: Yup.. But he deserved it.
67. Been Used?: Yup, see above..
68. Dumped Someone?: Yuppp.
69. Been Cheated On?: Ohhh, honey, don't EVEN get me started. haha
70. Been Kissed?: yesserrrr.
71. Done Something You Regret?: Oh for sure.. How about the months of March thru July?.. Sounds about right.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You Touched?: Dad.. I hit him for stealing my Pringles.
73. You Talked To?: Mom or dad.. forget which.
74. You Hugged?: I dont remember..
75. You Instant Messaged?: Leslie
76. You Kissed?: Not allowed to sayyyy.. haha
77. You Yelled At?: No one.. YET.
78. You Flicked off: Probably Ali and Saade in Ent.
79. Who Text Messaged You?: Bushen.
80. You went out with: My mom.. lol.
81. Who Told You They Loved You?: s-e-v-e-n-t-y----n-i-n-e.
MORE ABOUT YOU...
82. Color Your Hair? Brown, red, blonde.
83. Have Tattoos?: Not until March Break.
84. Have Piercings?: Ears and Belly Button.
85. Have A boyfriend/girlfriend?: Welllll......
86. Own A Webcam?: Not yet.
87. Own A Thong?: Numerousssss!
88. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer?:When I finish this thing. lol
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: ....No? lp;
90. Habla espanol?: Oh, lots.. So much I scream it in my sleep???.
91. Quack?: Oh, it;s obviously my thing?
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen Anything?: Do people count? lol
93. Smoke?: Have, not anymore though..
94. Schizophrenic?:I don't remember what this means? lol
95. Obsessive?: Over certain things.. Like people.
96. Compulsive?: Not exactly.
97. Obsessive compulsive?: Wow, didn't see that comming? lol.
98. Panic?: Am right now? lol
99. Anxiety?: Not really.
100. Depressed?: Noooooope.
Current Mood: Do you think I deserve this?..
Current Music: Beautiful You Are- IMX
January 10th, 2005
|09:19 pm - The Recap...|
Sooo, to recap the last few weeks of.. stuff?..
New Years- was at Matty's... Bushen came down for 2 nights, and partied with some of those crazy Fairview boys.. There were a few sick people, but all and all it was a relaxing, but wicked night..
Whooping their asses in poker.. Random fireworks down the street hitting random houses.. Missing out on Billy Talent with those fabulous girls, I call my bitches, but being okay with it, because I still got my wicked ass New Years.. I missed the wild and crazy things drunk Hessian does, but thats okay.. I love you, and I'm here for you... =) ... Jane popping out of nowhere in time to see Justin fall down a flight of stairs.. The cigar, the toke and the spew.. EWW.. "With an emphesis on the W", "when I say dance like you're ghetto, it means shake your ass, or grab your crotch.. depending upon your sexual preferance" -S. O'Connor.. "I wanna keep u..", the cell phone banners, the pre countdown chug, "START FROM 15!"- Matty "NO WAIT! 8!"-Me "NOOO! START AT 11!!!!"- Sean... Plus SOOOO much more.. haha
Wicked times.. I love you, kids!
Back to School- Was lame, lame, lame laaaaameeee... Facking sucks when you're drained, and have one day between the biigest/first hangover of the year, and your 3 weeks worth of homework and assignments.. Anyone in math/pre-cal knows what I mean.. So I just got the girl at work who is studying Neurology to help me out.. She did it sooo fast.. I looked like I was in the retard class at school.. Aka Foundations.. :\
Sooo.. Weekend was lame.. but, i bought my PROM DRESSSSS! Just call me Tinkerbell. ;) I cannot wait to get it.. But I'm keeping it on lay-away because I know for a FACT i would try that mo-fo on everychance I got to make sure I still loved it/fit in it.. haha I'm that much of a faggot..
Ohhh, and one last thing.. You never know when stuff can happen again.. no matter how rediculous it may sound at the time being.. Sometimes things are better the second time around.. But. hopefully I won't get in too over my head.. this time.. You nevver sease to amaze me...xo "Tap on my window, knock on my door.. I want to make you feel beautiful..."
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Mr. Brightside - The Killers
December 29th, 2004
|11:16 am - You've got to be the realest thing that I have ever felt..*|
Soo, Christmas is ooverrrr.. Which is a releif.. As much as I like it, its a very hectic season.. Lots of people in and out of my house, eating tons of turkey, putting on wieght.. Ya know, the fun stuff. lol
I think I'm going to Futureshop today to try and find a half decent webcam.. Those things look interesting.. And I'm really board with my computer, need to spice'er up a bit.. I sound like a totaaaaal geek.. But I know for a fact that I'll get it home, and not know what the hell I'm doing.. But, thats okay.. =p
Ahhh, I really don't have anything special to write.. Maybe something interesting will pop-up after New Years.. I certainly hope sooo..
So I'm going to leave you with this tiny message, as I have nothing better to do with my time.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Taking my life away - Default.
December 18th, 2004
|08:58 pm - This is not a hoe in the sense of havin a pussy, but a pussy having no God damn sense!|
Sooo. I'm officialy "of colour" and I hate girls. lol.. Orrr not..
I just bought the Jay-Z/Linkin Park CD, Collision Course, and I'm pretty much obsessed with it.. I'm constantly listening to it. lol
So not a whole lot has really happened in the past few days.. It's been slow, and nothing has really sparked my interest. I'm compleatly worn out from school, and trying not to fail math.. Which is really not working, and I'm not impressed.. I need that shit to graduate.. It's not fair.. I can't do the math thing, and I never could. Now it decides wether or not I can leave highschool or not.. I donno what to do anymore.. I'm on a waiting list for next semester, but I dont think It's going to work. Ahhh. This is the one and only thing on my mind lately, so I've been nothing but stressed about it. This is not a good way to go over things.. I've never been worried about failing a course before in my life, and I definitly can't handle it!.. AAAARRGHHH.
Lastnight was the Devil's Cheer Clinic. I brought my Jr team with me, and supervised the youth team for Alisha, as she was directing stuff.. While they were off dancing, I was stunting with Jill Steve and Alisha, and the coaches of the Devil's came over, and were watching me for a good 10 minutes.. I almost pee'd my pants.. They are 2 of the most intimidating people to stunt infront of, especially when you're trying to make their team next year.. Ahhh. They made me have butterflies in my stomach like woah. lol Ohhh well, tryouts wiill probably kill me for sure then. =(
Sooooo someone want to tell me why I'm home on a saturday night... This is gaaay, and I would love to be at a party that was supposed to be tonight, which got cancelled.. Dumbshit. I really need to get out of Halifax... Quebec trip, perhaps?.. Too long for my likings.. I'm not impressed with the way its being planned either.. I should've had this bought and paid for by now.. =(
Buuuut, oh well.
I don't think I have much else left to say.. G'night..
Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: Numb/Encore (see, I told you.. lol)
December 13th, 2004
|11:17 pm - MOREEE!|
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: I dare you to movvvvve
|10:44 pm - Gooood lord, it's been a while!!!! =)|
Holy shit.. This LJ thing is a little rusty.. I was reading some of the things, and laughed because I'm such a stupid little girl.. Definitly was still in tenner mode for a while. =(
A few things I've learned over the past few months:
1. No matter how cocky and sure of himself someone is, he can never EVER get exactly what he wants.
2. Things change.. But that's life.. If nothing changed, things will be boring.
3. You can find friends in some of the least expected places.
4. People never really leave you behind.. You're still in their thoughts.. Most of the time.
5. I own his ass.... haha
6. I do pretty well with coaching a cheerleading team.. Although they're all taller and bigger than I am..
7. Math 12 is a vice. Never slack in the begining.. It bites you in the ass.
8. Girls are fabulous.. No matter what guys say.
9. The Goo Goo Dolls have an answer for EVERYTHING.
10. annnd finally... The people who care, don't matter... The people who matter, don't care.. Which is one of the truest statements EVER!!!!...
So, I'll just leave it with the 10 of those.. If you don't get it, tough.. I still think they're greaaat.
It really has been a while sence I've written in this thing. My new cheer buddy, and ever so wicked Base, Lauren, has newly sparked my interest in gabbing on the LJ again.. She's a keener! What can I say!!
Sooo anywho. CHRISTMAS IS IN 12 DAYS!!.. That's soooo close.. I only bought my brother stuff so far... annnd that was just tonight. I'm facked, this definitly isn't good.. I've never left christmas to the last second before, and now I'm ripping my hair out, and kicking myself in the ass with my new pointy pink shoes... (Birthday presents, alright? lol)
I really don't have too much to say at the moment.. I just wanted to get back into the flow of things with the big Lj..
Night kiddies, xxo!
Current Mood: YESSS! BACK TO THE LJ!
Current Music: Slow Jamz--> Kanye West and Twista! ;)